What's holding me back?

Grey's anatomy season 5 finale was awesome. It was so great! I never watch a series which could touched my heart so deeply, tears fell as if the scene was actually happen in my life. Oh gosh, it really touches my heart.

Well, been busy revising recently, but sometimes something will eventually make me think. I love to think, think about myself, think about life, think about the people. Watching greys always reminded me of appreciating lives, appreciating what we have, and appreciating the people we love. They are ambitious, they do what they want to achieve; but me, been thinking so long and couldn't make a firm decision.

What is holding me back? What is actually holding me back? I am on a webpage where I just need to click on a button and pay for the master deposit, but till now I think I still need more courage. But why? What am I thinking about? Thinking about 2 years life in UK is more than enough, is time to go back? Thinking about give up Sheffield I might regret? Thinking that I might not used to the life in London? Or thinking that I don't have the confident to make it? Yeah, I am not confident, where's my confident gone? I don't know.

I overheard the phrase “有梦就要勇敢地去追”. Why I chose to study psychology at the first place? Because that is what I like, what I want. I think I know what to do now, to pay the deposit, to study hard, taking my first step to achieve my dream! Bless me!

And to all my friends, if you have a dream, go for it!

决定。选择

我患了“选择恐惧症”, 我没信心說服自己我做的决定一定是对的。

有些决定或许会影响我接下来的人生。

每一天都在逃避，迟迟不肯做决定。

我害怕，所以我怯步了，我犹豫了，我迷惘了。

请保佑我！

Dinner and Dance

Just an instant update. Went to the Dinner and Dance organized by Sheffield's Malaysian and Singaporean Society (MASSOC). Some pictures from the night:

~Hmm...~

~Joan.H Yiang.Dolly.Muriel~

~Hugz~

~My dearest coursemate~

~Jocelyn and me~

~Florence and me~

~Joule, Joseph, and me~

~The gals~

~Us again~

I love Spring

Spring is here!!! Flowers everywhere!! Nice and sunny weather, days longer than nights, I love I love, I love spring... Last year Easter, I've been to York, this year Easter, I went to York too! I like York for no reasons, just like it!

~I love Flowers~

~Enjoying Spring~

~Whee~

~Cool~

~I love this pic~

~The rare sunny weather in UK~

~The wonderful Spring time~

I hate this

I am such a indecisive person!!! =(

I hate this, I hate the indecisive me! Indecisive in everything!

《再别康桥》

偶然听到了一首很不错的歌，唤起了我中学时期背诵名句精华的日子。这首新诗本来就是很有意思，林宥嘉独特的嗓音把《再别康桥》唱得更有感觉，我听了觉得很感动，很有意境。康桥离我不远，我想因该找天到那一游，然后也找找达胜。

再别康桥

作者：徐志摩 曲：西楼 主唱：林宥嘉

轻轻的我走了，正如我轻轻的来；

我轻轻的招手，作别西天的云彩。　

那河畔的金柳，是夕阳中的新娘；

波光里的艳影，在我的心头荡漾。　

软泥上的青荇，油油的在水底招摇；

在康河的柔波里，我甘心做一条水草！　

那榆荫下的一潭，不是清泉，是天上虹；

揉碎在浮藻间，沉淀着彩虹似的梦。　

寻梦？撑一支长篙，

向青草更青处漫溯；

满载一船星辉，在星辉斑斓里放歌。　

但我不能放歌，悄悄是别离的笙箫；

夏虫也为我沉默，沉默是今晚的康桥！　

悄悄的我走了，正如我悄悄的来；

我挥一挥衣袖，不带走一片云彩。

p/s : MELVIN MAH should thank me, introducing such a nice song and enhanced your knowledge in mandarin!! DAO YONG: Thanks for the Yoga's album first... Woohoo~ I introduce you nice song too!!

Dilemma

I am in a dilemma, I am lost, I don't know whether to stay back in UK for Masters or go back?

Master in Organisational Psychiatry and Psychology in King's College? I am so interested in it, but there's always a BUT. I feel guilty to spend my dad's money. I was wondering how many years my dad need to work to earn that money? And zOoM... it gone all the money if I decided to continue study. I am always impress of my dad, I respect him and I love him for giving us the best! Well, I will try to apply for funding/scholarship, hopefully my degree results will go well.

I should make up my mind A.S.A.P, but I am avoiding it, avoiding myself to think about it.

So PLEASE, DOLLY LOONG, be motivated and think about it seriously. Once decide, TAKE ACTION!