My way?

I am not in a good mood recently... I don't know why I feel so but actually I know why, very contradictory right? I know there is something I need to decide and settle as soon as possible, but I just keep delaying... Seems like I am so free, everyday sleep and hang out, don't want to stay at home, just feel like going out---> I know I just avoid and ignore the problem, I don't want to think about it although I know I need to think about it no matter how... At least now I don't want and don't let me think about it...

The same question---> Where should I go??? Do I really need to go to Perth just because my parents want me to go there? Because my brother is there to take care of me? I don't like this, I don't want the whole life live under the protection and caring of my family, I want to become independent!!! They said I look weak, dependent and they are worry about me... But my dear parents! I grow up already, I learn to be tough and independent and I am not the previous weak gal... Why don't you be confident and trust your daughter me? Why? Is your daughter so useless and fragile in your eyes until you think you need to protect her forever? Just give me a chance, trust me, let me live a life belongs to me... I will take care of myself and be tough!

Anyway, I still haven't decide where to go and can I don't think of it?? At least now?? I will think about it this week...

Pragmatic Love

Pragma love style--- A logical love which consider the partner's financial ability...

Well, I think I am a pragmatic person most of the time or perhaps now. Last time I used to be an eros and agape I guess. But when come to think of it, eros is just too romantic and is far from the reality. Agape, sacrifice just for love, but what do I got--->nothing but a memory which I do not want to remember.

Pragma pragma, there are at least four pragmatic people in my group of seven when we did our group assignment on love styles. When my lecturer asked me why I think I fall in the pragma group, I said "Fall in love not just because of fall in love, there are still many things to consider such as your partner financial ability because I need to think for my future as well." She answered "You are a realistic person." Well, I think when we fall in love, we should also think about our future right? I didn't say that receiving flowers and having candle-light dinner is not good, once in a while is okay but when you have it too many times, don't you think that it become meaningless? I rather use the money to spent on something useful and something I like. Honestly, I also wish I can receive flowers from my love one, but one time is enough, just one time. If my lover can give me the flower I like most, one time is more than enough because he understand me. By the way, does anyone out there know what is my favourite flower? Tell me if you know, I might fall in love with you, wahahaha........

Besides pragma, I think I also fall on storge category. I think most of the relationship start with friendship. Before I start a romantic relationship, I must get know the person, not fully understand but at least I know him. Love at first sight might exist, but I don't really believe on that and not so confident on that too! Love is about the feeling of secure, if I can't trust the person, why should I be together with him? I will not happy and comfortable if I can't feel the feeling of security from him.

So, do you know which is your love style? Pragma, Mania, Ludus, Agape, Storge or Eros?
Mania---> possessive love that illustrated by negative emotions such as jealousy and anxiety.
Ludus---> game-playing love which views love as a game and enjoy love in low commitment.
Eros---> passionate love and place more value on physical attractiveness of one’s partner.
Storge---> friendship love in which partners tend to build long term relationship that deep caring is needed.
Agape---> altruistic love which is selfless and willing to sacrifice themselves for their lover.
(Lee 1973, as cited in Hendrick & Hendrick, 1986; Dion & Dion, 1993)

爱得太迟

正在听着古巨基的《爱得太迟〉〉。一首蛮不错的歌。歌词很有意思。

我过去那死党早晚共对各也扎职以後没法畅聚

而终於相约到但无言共对疏淡如水

日夜做见爸爸刚好想呻 却霎眼看出他多了皱纹

而他的苍老感 是从来未觉太内疚担心

最心痛是 爱得太迟 有些心意 不可等某个日子

盲目地发奋 忙忙忙其实自私

梦中也习惯有压力要我得知

最可怕是 爱需要及时只差一秒 心声都已变历史

忙极亦放肆 见我爱的见双至 要抱要吻怎麼也好

偏要推说要等一下次

我也觉我体质仿似下降 看了症得到是别要太忙

而影碟都扫光但从来未看 因有事赶

日夜做储的钱都应该够 到圣诞正好讲 跟我白头

谁知她开了口 未能挨下去 己恨我很久

错失太易 爱得太迟 我怎想到 她忍不到那日子

盲目地发奋 忙忙忙从来未知 幸福会掠过

再也没法说锺意

爱一个字 也需要及时只差一秒 心声都己变历史

为忙未放肆

见我爱见的双至 要抱要吻要怎麼也好

不要相信一切有下次

相拥我所爱又花几多秒

这几秒 能够做到又有多少

未算少 足够遗憾忘掉

多少抱憾 多少过路人

太懂估计 却不懂爱锡自身

人人在发奋 想起他朝都兴奋

但今晚未过 你要过也很吸引

纵不信运 你不过是人

你想很远爱於咫尺却在等

来日别操心 趁你有能力开心

世界有太多东西发生 不要等到天上苦困

(As cited in 林夕，２００６）

　　很多时候人总是不把想说的话和想做的事在第一时间完成；而总是用一大堆理由来当借口，往往到最后才发现一切都已经太迟了。不是每一件事都可以等的，机会也是不会等人的。有时候就只在那一瞬间幸福就和你擦身而过，一切也会变成历史。想和朋友聚会就不要等啦，找一个时间大家聚一聚，不要再把没时间当作是借口啦！爱一个人就对他说啊，你不说又有谁会知道？或许在这一刻他是爱你的，不说，缘分或许就这样和你擦肩而过。为什么人总是想到未来呢？与其担心未来会发生什么事，不如珍惜现在，去完成自己想做的事。未来是遥远的，但是现在是我们可以掌握的，只要你的现在是过得有意义的，是开心的，那未来也没什么好遗憾的了。朋友们，把你想说的话、想做的事都完成吧！不要让一切都太迟了才后悔！

Useless fish

I don't like whatever things in last minute... I know I am pretty free nowadays, but still I have my own plan... I don't like to mess up my things...

I ain't a good member in group works... Now I just feel so useless useless and useless... The feeling was like I going to bang my head on the wall, cause I am just that useless... Isn't it? What can I do? Tell me what can I do to not be so useless and stupid??? I am not a smart person and I duno what can I do??? I just feel stress in most of the group work cause I scare the effort I put into it was just too little until I myself wondering what I have contribute to the group... I am afraid to be blame, seriously I am SCARE!!! I just remembered when I got drunk, I cried terribly cause I afraid my performance in group presentation...

No matter how much tears I dropped, I still need to overcome the fearness of group work coz I know in my life, there are a lot of group work to do and I need to cooperate with people around! Its just my feelings, nothing much............ :)

STPM

STPM results released few days ago... First of all, congratulations to my friends who got great results in STPM!!! I know you all are busy applying for the university and wondering what course to take. Take your time to think what course you are interested and hopefully you all can get the course and uni you want!!! No worries no worries!!!

For those who are not satisfy with the results, don't be too sad and disappointed, life still goes on. Honestly, the certificate is just a printed paper, now it does affect your choices of your life, but it can't determine your whole life. As long as you try your best, there is nothing to be regret. When you successfully enter university, no one will actually ask about your results no matter is SPM and STPM. A single certificate can't never prove you are a failure throughout your whole life. There are many choices in the life but many people "never knew they had a choice".

A friend of mine told me when she compared her results to people who scored better, she felt sad... Yea, compare and compete often trigger the negative feelings. I used to compare and compete a lot. When I knew most of my ex-classmates got excellent results, I was thinking if I sit for STPM will I get excellent results too?? For sure I know this is a hypothetical question and it will not happen on me anymore, but still my natural reaction is compare and compete... Their way and mine is totally different yet I still like to compare, wondering why...

Well, once again congratulations to my friends and good luck!!! Sincerly, I wish you all can get the course you all wanted to study and have a bright and successful future!!! All the best guys!! Kian Nie, Shu Yih and Paik Wah, remember to treat me eat when I go back!!! Wahaha...

Lee Hom's Concert 2007

Lee Hom's Concert Live in Malaysia 2007... Yeah!!! I went to the concert, it was so so so great!!! Should blog it earlier, but I did not have the time to blog until recently. He was so talented, piano, violin, guitar, drums, erhu, dancing, he was great for all!!! Besides, he was awesome and could not be deny that he is super handsome and cool.. Here are some pictures during the concert though the pics are not so clear...

~How cute of him~

Hero of the earth??? That's Lee Hom

Talented Leehom

Yea... The ticket was worth for the great concert of him... Love you very much--->LEEHOM!

Congratulations Tania!

My sister registered last week and now she is Mrs. Chan... Congratulations to my sister and also my brother in law... Wahaha... Here are some pics we took last week....

The new married couple and my family

~Forever Love~

Blessing from cousins

Once again, congratulations to my dearest sister and my brother in law and may your love last forever and ever...

Group Work

I should say hello to everyone out there because I am a freshyhere...
Nothing much to say just check it out my blog when you are free... Thanks for the support...

My first blog, should be cheerful but then I wanted to say "I hate group work"...
Maybe you think that I am selfish, but I think I prefer to be responsible for myself than anyone else... When doing individual assignment, no matter the results are good or bad, I am the one who need to be responsible... Group work, you need to be responsible for all the members's advantage... When you did nothing, you feel guilty; when you did too much, you blame others for being lazy----->CONTRADICTORY!!!

I know group work is important, so I am learning to complete my group work...