My summer should end here

I think my summer break should stop here. No one wants the holiday to end so fast, but seriously I think many things happened during this holiday, I hope everything will come to an end. Now I realize, sometimes knowing much is not a good thing either. There's something which I wish I will not know forever, knowing too much sometimes will make you think you are a fool, a stupid idiot.


Whatever happened these months make me thinks that sometimes people around me are quite scary. I wonder which person is a true friend of mine and which person is just like pretending to be a good person. Now I know, people will not turn to evil reasonless, sometimes life and experiences just push people towards the corner, force to be an evil. Will I become an evil then? I wish I will not, but after so many things, I just need to protect myself so I wouldn't get hurt anymore, forgive me, it's a self-defense mechanism, I need to be selfish sometimes. No worries, I know deep inside my heart, turning into an evil is not easy, but who knows?

I did mention before there's always turning back, but is it for everything? Now I am kind of exhausted, I just don't want to care, whatever happened is already happened, we can't change it. Wound will be cure but scar will always be there. Sometimes it's too late for everything, but I hope everything isn't too late for me! Sometimes being good to others mean being evil/harsh to ourselves. Lastly lastly, you're just the one who being hurt and feel sad. So, why should I bother to treat people good anymore?

Well, this might be an emotional post which is full of anger and disappointment. But, things are so uncertain in our life, I never know what is going to happen next. Mind is blank and heart is empty, guess I need some time to find my way back! Sorry, if you guys find out the dolly here is not the dolly you know (at least for this moment). Bless me!

Uncertainties, Life and Me

Again, this holiday, I realize nothing is eternal and thing doesn't go the way we wish. Well, everything is kinda fragile, maybe within few seconds, everything can be totally different and everything will only turn into history. I have done all I can, now just let natural takes place. I think truth is not how you explained it, truth is you believe in yourself, and is not about how others look at you. Time is a great tool, as time goes by, nothing can destroy truth!

Suddenly, I miss my buddies who are in Adelaide. I know, they will always by my side no matter what happen. Here come a question, did I make a right choice or wrong choice last year when I decided to go to UK? If I am in Adelaide, I think I will be very happy and many things will not happen. However, I did know some great friends over UK. There's always a chance to turn back, to transfer to Adelaide, right? Will I make this U-Turning? I always told people that the happiest time I have is during my college life, I met a bunch of "crazy" people, they are all cherish, perhaps they are more mature than I am, both chronologically and mentally. The cherish them always brighten up my days and my life!

Sigh, I am so confuse, confuse over something. Nevermind, life still moves on. Things which are unhappy just leave it behind. As someone told me before I have survive strongly in UK, so just don't give up and move on. I will always stay strong and stay tough and will not easily give up!
Bless me, wish me, and always be by my side~

Summer Holiday

Finally I am updating my blog. Hmm, time flies, month after month just pass like that. My feelings are complicated now. Sometimes I feel like going back to UK soon, sometimes I don't feel like going back. I know I always contradict with myself, I just don't know what I want, don't know what he wants, don't know what she wants, and don't know what they want!

Just came back from Miri, Brunei, and Sibu. Well, it's a nice and relaxing trip. The hosts are especially great. Specially thanks to Pricilla, Julian, Kevin, and of cross their family. People said it's hard to look for a close friend, then probability is low to meet a person, to know him/her, and become close friend. I'm glad that I have not only one good friend, I have you all. We met in other's country but we become good friends. Once again, Happy 21st Birthday to Baby Pricilla and I believe you have a wonderful birthday party and I am glad that I was able to attend your grand birthday party. May all your wishes come true!!!

If you ask me what I think about this summer holiday, I would say relax and relax. Summer, always give people the impression of cherish, brightness, full of energy and hope. If you ask me what else I want to do during this summer holiday, I would say I want to go to an island or beach, lay myself down on the beach and enjoy the natural scene and the sea. Wow, that's what I wanted to do most now! I miss the Redang trip 2 years back where there is only beaches and friends. Sigh, wonder when can I go to enjoy my beach holiday again!

Well, I think I shall stop here and I will update again about my summer holiday! Happy happy everyone!!! Muaksss.....