FRIENDS VS ME

What is friends about? What is a friendship? Friendship is a kind of intimate relationship... (P/S: refer to "I never knew I had a choice" chapter 7-- relationship)...

Certain friendship can last for a longer time, but some will last for a period of time... We have different friends in different stages of life... When we study primary school, we have our primary school's friends... When we move to high school, some primary school's friends still remain but at the same time we go to know some new friends... When we go to college or university, we got new friends and old friends might remain the same or turn up to be a hi-bye friend...

Most of my primary school's friends still remain as my friends until secondary school... Then, I knew another group of friends during national service, and then I knew my college friends... Friends come and friends go, is a normal thing in our life... Friends get together mostly because of cohort- the similarities among us... But as time pass, the similarities might change and we might have different dreams, different thoughts, or even different perspective of life... The time when we talked about our ambitions our dreams has passed, just because we have different dreams again...

Many people actually tell me that friends from hometown or friends from your teenage years to adolescents would be the best group of friends throughout your life... I can't deny it as in we experienced many things in more than ten years time... They should be able to understand me well...

What I hate most among friends is betrayer... I understand people have the true "self" and also public face which is use when facing the people around you... But then, don't be too over until did something that actually hurt your friend... When you ask me did my friends betray or hurt me before... I shall answer "YES" with a smile on my face... What can I do then?? My blacky- cow friend told me just take it as a lesson... Yea, take it as a lesson and sorry, maybe you are just not a suitable friend for me and from that moment you're leaving my world... Another friend of mine "zhu ba jie" even funny, asked me to create story just to increase my self-esteem??? Somehow another I am not a self-actualizing person, thus, forgiving a person is not that easy... And "zhu ba jie" told me not to forgive... wahahaha...

Sadly sadly, I realize it is very hard to find a friend who is able to understand me well... And, I guess not much friends understand me as well... If any of my friends think he/she understand me, tell me and you are appreciated!!! Wahahaha... C'mon lah life still goes on and there is someone in this world would be a good friend or even best friend to me!!!

"jiao xiao ling long"

Do you think I am a person who needs protect?
Stop telling me you feel like protecting someone...
Stop telling me those nonsense without understand the word "love"...
Want to understand a person???
You won't be able to understand a person if she/he doesn't want you to understand him/her...
If I want you to understand me, you will eventually understand me!!!

I ain't a person who needs your to protect!

I just realize "jiao xiao ling long" is not that good!

Piano

The piano in my house was send to my sister's new house in KL today... This piano has accompany me for more than ten years in my hometown.. I started my piano lesson since I was five or six years old, I can't really remember that... As a kid, I am curious and interested in playing piano especially when I saw my sister played well on piano... Honestly, I enjoyed playing piano at the beginning and practised it quite often... But, standard four onwards, I was very stress with my stupid primary school homeworks and lost my passion in playing piano...

Still remember the first time I took piano examination, I was very nervous and scare, my hands was sweating and I couldn't play well, I knew I was going to fail and I failed for the very first time... During secondary school, I became lazier and lazier, I will only practise piano one hour before my piano teacher came to my house... What was the outcome was I scolded by my piano teacher... Honestly, I was very bored with those examination pieces, imagine every piano lesson could not escape from the three pieces... I will only practise when the pieces were nice and sweet and most important it is new for me!!! In many times, I played piano when I had bad mood, I can atually release my anger, sadness, tension through piano... I felt better after a few song was played...

Finally, I decided to give up piano lesson when I was form five... I was afraid I cannot cope with SPM, school activities and piano at the same time... That time I was practising grade 7 pieces, but I decided to give up... Just like gave up ballet, I felt regret of giving piano...

I never play piano for a long time, this time back from KL I actually play it... Even though my finguring is not so smooth, I still find the happiness and meaning by playing piano... No matter how, piano had been a part in my life and a memory in my life... I feel like posting up some pictures of my piano, but I don't have bluetooth device with me here, so I think I shall post in when I go back to KL.

Bye! HELP!

It has been a boring day for me… Everyone is not around. Some of them went back to hometown while some of them went to community service… Just had mcd for my lunch and now I am figuring what to eat for my dinner… The weather now make my mood even down, no sunlight, no rain, but the sky looks very down. I am very tired but I don’t feel like sleeping anymore although I slept at 7am today… I don’t feel like doing anything besides facing my laptop. I was just like a human without the soul…

~Friends~

This is my last semester in HELP I guess… Semester ended so fast than what I thought... A few months ago, I hope the semester end as soon as possible so I got to rest and relax... Sadly, the feeling was totally different when this semester ended... I already study in HELP for almost two years... I experienced many things throughout this one and half year: happy, sad, disappointed, anger, frustrated, excited and etc... thank God, I knew a group of nice and “weird” friends here, perhaps this is the best thing I got from HELP... Two years seem short, but I have a lot of memories here...

~In HELP~

I appreciate the time we have together... Talking nonsense and sharing our own feelings and problems. Sometimes I came to think of it, it is very funny yet happy... The funniest thing I am thinking now is when two gals went out together; we can actually do something very silly and unexpected... Most of my friends were and are transfering to oversea this year, for sure I miss and will miss them a lot... I have a sweet and wonderful memories with you guys! I miss the moment when we hang out together!!!

~Cute Post~

Okay, I think I shall stop here... I lost my post for twice already, better save it now... Here is just a post out of boredom... Have a happy and nice holiday guys!!! See ya!!! ~Hugs~

~Final exam is coming~

Final exam coming!!!

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All the best to my friends including me!!!

I am looking forward the holiday after final!!!

So, work hard for final,

and we shall have a great time after that!!

Good luck!!

Gambateh!!!

加油！！

Beach versus me!!!

Beach, a place which I want and wish to go now... Instead of playing water, I prefer to sit on theseaside enjoying every scene and every moment there... I can just staring on the sea, the sky oreven the people without thinking a single thing... The sound of the waves and the winds take away everything which bothering me so much and put me in a peaceful state... When you shout towards the sea, the feeling was like throwing out the distracting "rubbish" in your heart as well as in yourmind... Indirectly, you are releasing stress and feel better after that...

~Sunset~

~Guess where?~

~Sunrise~

I have a lot of memories at beach! I spend most of my leisure time visiting beach during my secondary school days... Nowadays I could not find any beach in KL... I miss beach a lot... Guys, we shall make a visit to beach when I get home and can we organize a camping trip at beach as well??? That shall be a wonderful time for me!!!

Guys and Girls

I have several question to ask here:

1. Which type of girl is more popular among guys?
~typically is those who are soft-spoken, dependent and good-looking?

2. Which type of girl do guys typically choose as girlfriend?
~as I mentioned above or the other way round?

3. If you like a gal, do you call her everyday?

4. If the gal you like or your girlfriend angry at you because you didin't call her and late for the date, what will you do?
~Just ignore it or apologize to her?

5. Will you buy your love one an expensive gift during valentine and her birthday?
~Flowers? Diamond? Or just something which she likes?

6. If you been rejected, will you still treat the gal like before?

7. Does a soft-spoken, pretty, dependent gal deserves better from the guys and are the gal specifically need protection?
~How about the gal who look don care, independent, tough and happy-go-lucky?

I am just too bored and curious about guys and gals... Hahaha...
By the way, can you define the meaning of "not simple person"?