STOP asking me

STOP asking me when is my visa could be done!!!

DON'T ask the question which even I myself don't know the answer!

WHY I need to make this choice??? To go to Australia???

I am TIRED of these questions already........................

PLEASE, give me some space to BREATH.....................

I am seriously TIRED, FRUSTRATED, DISAPPOINTED, ANGRY, and WORRY!!!

A stressful week I had

At the first place, I should be in the plane now... 07/07/07, what a nice date, I should leave Malaysia and start my new life in Adelaide, Australia... But, now I am still in KL, just because the embassy hasn't approve my student visa... I waited for so long, and the feeling in past few days was like terrible, deciding whether to change my air ticket... At the same time, I afraid that my student visa will be approve if I had change my air ticket... It's so CONTRADICTORY!!! I just want to know what is the problem with my student visa??!! What take them so long to approve my student visa??!!

And of cross, I cried, for twice... The first time I cried is because I was worry I can't smoothly transfer to Aus today, and the reality showed I can't... The second time I cried is because I can't transfer on today itself... My friends actually told me maybe is a good thing to transfer later so I can spend more time in Malaysia... Yea, it is a good thing, but still I am psychologically prepare to leave on today, and I don't like things changing and changing in a short period of time! I was sad because my things just couldn't be done smoothly and I need to make a lot of choices...

Cry, is to release my feelings and emotions deep inside my heart after a long time of keeping them inside the heart... After cried, I feel better seriously... I think people who can cry is better than those who can't cry... Hiding the feeling behind a happy and smily face is very suffer and unhealthy... But still, everyone has the different ways to express feelings!

An unhappy and tension week I had... Bless me everything will go smoothly in the following days, weeks, years.................

Frustrated

Oh my god! I am leaving for australia on July 7th, but my student visa still haven't approve yet!!! Can anyone tell me what should I do?? The agent just ask me to wait wait wait and check my mail regularly... Te worst is if I am not able to take my visa before 7th, how? I need to cancel off my flight, cancel off my temporary accomodation, but still I need to pay for them... Haih, haih, haih~~ I am afraid I gonna miss the orientation and all that!!!

Pray for me please... To transfer smoothly~~

A love letter

To my lovely dear,

Since the first day I met you, I know you are an attractive person, at least you attracted my attention! You look so familiar to me yet you are so far from me! Everytime when I get closer to you, either I can't see your face clearly or you disappear from my sight! I think I know you but I don't know who are you!!! Maybe you are somebody in my life; maybe you are not, I am not sure about that!!!

In the dream, you are my lover... And why do you always appear in my dream??? Can I know who are you???

Yours beloved,
JelLy---fIsh

(This is the love letter I told michele I will write. Since this is the first time I write, so I don't think is a love letter.)

***Everything just out of boredom!!!

Like and Love

Today my friend asked me to differentiate between like and love... I told him is depends on how he looks at them... He asked me to give opinion on that... Well well, I personally think that like is about having good impression towards people: you can like a lot of people at the same time such as your family members, friends, or even strangers... But love... hem... I think is more complicated, is an inner feeling, a special feeling that make you want to be with him/her---> It's so hard to describe!

Honestly, I don't know how to differentiate between like and love also... I could be quite blur and confuse with the two things also... I don't know how to confirm whether you like a person or love a person??? Finally my friend told me I wake him up, but the thing is I wake people up, but I still blur blur stone there!!! How how??

How do you guys perceive like and love? Come come tell me so I won't be so blur too!!!

Lovely Sunday~About love

It's been a tired and boring day!!! Sitting in the Genting's starbucks with mango frappucino and chocolate chips cinamon on the table!! Last night I went for Sammi Cheng's concert in Genting... The concert was great but people sitting beside Mel and I were quiet and weird?? We were the two persons in that row who shout and scream!

Back to the popular and usual topic---> Most people will become "blind" because of love? Maybe I don't really have the right to judge a person being "blind" when he is in love because I became "blind" too in my last relationship... But since a friend of mine is in love, he became a stranger in my life, I don't know him and don't understand him... I don't know he falling in love because he loves her; or he fall in love just for the sake of falling in love?? There was a time when I think love between a guy and a gal is very important in my life, and don't know there are other things important around me... And I don't know since when I realize and understand that love between guy and gal just a part, but not all!!! Perhaps experience can make someone grow!

Many people advise the friend of mine but he just continue being blind and deaf... He totally become a different person, different from who he was last time... Hardly spare time with friends, we seldom hang out together anymore, even normal chatting also become lesser... I am not trying to offence anyone who is in a relationship... As a friend, I also hope he find someone he loves and someone to love him, but I just hope he can be more rational so he would not hurt himself... But again, this is a very subjective issue, it depends on your definition and perspective on love... If he thinks he is happy in this way, I have nothing much to say and will bless him has a good and happy future!

This post should be post by Sunday, but sadly my laptop run out of battery and the plug in starbucks was not functioning... So I slept in starbucks!!! However, a tiring weekend!

Skinny Dolly

Today I went for medical check-up, the doctor was like "Oh my god!!! You are so underweight!!" Then he told my sister to buy oil for me to eat... He even said chop me off also not even one plate.. What should I eat then? Weight-gain?? Useless because I tried before...Perhaps my sister eat most of the food, that's why I am so skinny... Hopefully I will gain weight in Australia...

Time passes so fast, I am leaving to Aus in two weeks time...

Nothing much... Hopefully everything will be fine over there!!! Bless me!