Fish's thoughts

Recently I am so not Dolly, I wonder why I didn't behave like what I normally behave. I didn't express my anger, I didn't express my dissatisfaction except to some close friend of mine. I angry of myself, because I couldn't stand firm like last time, because I am just trying to run away from troubles. I don't want to think, I don't want to use my brain, I just don't want to do anything. I feel sad and disappointed of myself because I think sometimes I just being weak and silly. But after talk to my "little bro", I actually realize and understand something which stuck in my mind for some time.

Think from other perspective, the best knowledge you get from study abroad is not about what your textbooks say, but the communication and compromising between people. At this moment you might found compromising with people is hard and suffer, but come to think of that, you are actually learning something from it, to be patient, and not to be too self-centered. Generally speaking, I think people are selfish most of the time, will you do something which doesn't bring any advantage to you? I might be wrong, but that's what my own perception. I am selfish as well, but we don't really need to be too over! Sometimes being stupid and silly is not bad and it doesn't mean that you are really stupid and useless; smart people will not show how smart they are. Sometimes, just let people take some "advantage" from you, just let them think you are naive and silly, one day you might realize you will get more than you give. It could be a kind of investment, losing a bit might get you better profit!

Off topic, the life here is getting boring but tired. Sometimes feel like crying, but knowing that crying also couldn't help me, might as well don't cry, later make my emotion and mood worse. Might as well turn the boredom into eat and sleep, at least that is something I love to do!!! Wakaka...

Okay, remember that you need to loss something in order to gain more in return!!!
(I realize my two "brothers" and me always come out with those evil ideas and we actually enjoy those evil plans a lot!!! Kekeke...)

Miss you guys!!

~Joyce, Rynn and Dik~

Was talking to my cousin just now, she makes me miss them so much. I have three cousins which are closest to me: Joyce, Rynn, and Kuo Dik.

Joyce, is my companion most of the time when I was in KL. Maybe I should say, I was hers best study companion and she was my late nite companion. When she was preparing for CLP, I accompany her to study in Starbucks or Sky Cafe. We always go shopping and have tea together. Late at night, we will widely awake and searching around for food, and often instant noodles and Mcd is our super late supper. I saw her stress and cried over her studies, and I share her happiness when she pass her CLP. Now, I hope she will successfully complete her chambering this year, and I miss the way she called me "loong mei mei"...

~Joyce and Me~

Rynn, is my companion since we were kid, and our relationship strengthen when both of us went to KL. She was my "kaki lepak" and "kaki clubbing". We often create lies to our sisters just of the sake of going clubbing. There was one time when our sisters were not at home, both of us went to 7-11 to buy beers, we decided to drink until vomit, just to vomit. And we did, we feel good after vomitting, it sounds crazy and yes, it was crazy. And then, we talked for whole night, talked about our problems, our sadness, until we fell asleep in the living room. Oh, I enjoyed doing facial by her and of cross, massage!!! Can't wait to go back and do facial. My friends are her friends, her friends are my friends too! Okay, I promise go back I will definetely hang out with you day and night.

~Rynn and Me~

Kuo Dik, is my cousin brother who always watch soccer with me. Okay, I know a lot about soccer from him. During world cup, both of us watched the football match until falling asleep in the living room. And Rynn, Dik and me actually drive all along to PBD Ali Maju to eat and also to watch the football match. He was my dinner companion sometimes, everytime is the mamak nearby our house. He also the one who buy take away lunch for me because I will only wake up during lunch time. Well, Rynn and him were my "clubbing kaki", we often do stupid and crazy things in club, such as throwing ice into each other's shirt and dance like stupid people.

Sigh, life here is so boring without you guys. Seeing Joyce and Rynn cried when I leave to UK made me so heavy-hearted. So sad, I miss you guys!!! Nevermind, time flies, I'll be back soon and we'll hang out together!!! Miss you all loads!!!

Wait for me... I"LL BE BACK SOON!!!

Nobody and Nothing

Ya, I am stupid, I am idiot, I am NOBODY!!! I am not gonna to say anything anymore, LISTEN, I'm NOT GONNA TO SAY ANYTHING!

Compromising?! Haha, You make me feel like I am such an idiot!

Trying to be kind, Oh please, Dolly Loong can never be kind! You're testing my patience, and of cross my limit! Do I deserve all these?! NO!!! I deserve better than all these!!!

Be kind to me and I'll definetely be kind to you; be mean to me, I'll be as meaner as I could!

This moment onwards, I will say NOTHING because you're NOBODY to me!!!

Random

Time flies, Chinese New Year 2008 is here. I still remember last year about this time, I cut my hair short, very short. Everyone was asking me why did I cut it short? Is it because of broke up with my lover? Is it because I want to forget something unhappy? Haha, not at all, I cut it just because I feel like cutting it short, to change my hairstyle. The last time I cut my hair is before I came UK. Again, time flies, my hair growing longer and it's so MESSY now, can't wait to go back Malaysia and change my hairstyle again!

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Valentine's day is coming soon, my friend asked me how do I gonna celebrate Valentine's day? Haha, good question, I should be staying in my room watching series or sleeping. I forgot how I celebrate last year Valentine's day, but I did remember how I celebrate the Valentine's day the year before. It's with my good friends, countdowning for Valentine's day in Yippie Cup, SS2, cheers for being single and went to Secret Recipe with my "dai ma" and "sai ma" in Hartamas (Supposedly in souled out).

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There's few thing I need to settle as soon as possible:

1. Look for a part time job.
2. Look for the accomodation for coming September.
3. Change the date of my air ticket back to Malaysia.

I want all these to be done as fast as possible, no more delays, cause I'm running out of time. Time is money, delaying might cause nothing to be done finally. So, get them done!!!

Okay, just a very random post... Happy CNY everyone!

Chinese New Year 2008

Happy Chinese New Year everyone!!!

Suprisingly the CNY here is not that lonely as I thought, maybe because just finish the reunion dinner with my "ji mui". Or perhaps not much CNY feel here, is just like normal days, you won't feel the strong lonely feeling.

Just finish my exam yesterday, the feeling was like RELIEF! Too much of caffein, not enough sleep, stress, panic, tension, nervous; but all these are gone! I could totally relief and relax and sleep as much as I want now. Wakaka, I am so happy, so so so happy! Oh, that feeling is call SATISFACTION!!!

Recently I am very hyper and happy, wondering why? Perhaps it's a good thing. Beginning of this year, I promise myself it's a must to live happily. No matter how gloomy the weather is, I will make sure there's always sunshine with me. I promise myself not to let anyone affects my mood, my emotions and my days!!! No one could affect me, because I deserve better than all these! Now, I couldn't find a reason why I feel sad and emo for some stupid nonsense while at the same time others are living their happy life! I'm not going to torture myself anymore! I'm gonna to love myself more and more, and to appreciate someone who appreciate me!

There's always sunshine after rain. Winter is gonna end soon, and spring is coming up! Everyday is a new day, it's full of suprise, expectation, and hopes! So, no matter how tough the day is, smile, everything is gonna be alright!

寒冬快过，还有春天，希望永不凋谢！

山穷水尽疑无路，柳暗花明又一村！

所以，让我们用微笑来面对每一天，因为每天都是个美好的！

~4 dishes 1 soup~

~Muriel and Yee Huai~

~Joan and Dolly~

Snowy Sheffield

It's snowing in Sheffield! This morning I woke up, open the curtain, see the trees and roads are covered with snow, it's so beautiful! Called up Joan, asked her to open the window and look, she said "har? got what wor? nth ar!" Then I asked her did she see something white? She said "Oh, the sky izzit? Ya, quite clear!" Omg, I was so gonna to kick her. Here are some pics we took:

~Muriel and Me~

~Joan and me~

~Terrible look~

~Throw her, throw her~

~View from my room~

~Snow Melting~

Hehe, though having exam, but it's fun playing snow with you guys. And like crazy people throwing each other with snow on the way to library which makes people look at us who didn't play snow before. (Then Joan and me will say "look what? Just like you guys enjoy tanning under the sun only what!")...

Thanks Joan for the lovely breakfast, cookie and coffee. Thanks Muriel for waking me up early in the morning to go library but I was just too lazy to wake up. Good luck for our last paper! Cheers~

It's 4.15am in the morning now~ Sigh~

Happy Chinese New Year

I know I should be studying now, but was decorating my flat with my flatmate just now (due to our stress-ness preparing for exam) because Chinese New Year is coming soon!!! Let me procrastinate for a while, post up the photos of my flat:

~My housemate's room~

~Happy Chinese New Year~

~My Room~

~Fire-crackers~

~Kitchen with "Ang Pao"~

~Washroom!!!~

~Redish redish~

Okay, though it would be my first CNY here, far away from my family and friends, I shouldn't be that sad right? I should have a happy and cheerful Chinese New Year here too right? When you yourself feel happy, you will feel that everyone and everything around you is so beautiful and meaningful, and you will feel happier after that!

Friends, we just left the last paper, stay strong and good luck! Joan, don't forget our vodka party(you this kaki botol, kekeke)! So, let's us have a wonderful Chinese New Year after exam!!! Yay!

Happy Chinese New Year everyone!!!