Back to normal

Time flies, without much conscious, one month just gone away, and I had spend my holiday wisely I guess. Full-stop on my holiday, everything's back to normal. Normal days, normal routine, normal lifestyle. It's been freaking tired for the pass few weeks, been travelling around, not enough of rest, so I am seriously exhausted now. I just need a good rest and sleep, for some reason, I couldn't sleep well recently. And what I did yesterday was I planning to take a short nap at 7pm, who knows I woke up at 2.30am, and then stay awake till 7am. I just feel that I couldn't move my body, dizzy and headache all the while... Sighz...

38 gong went back, everything back to position, but it's so quiet without that 38 gong. We spend 2 weeks holiday together, around the UK. He told me the weather in UK is so depressive which will lead us to mild depression. When I was on my way back to Sheffield from London, I was so not used to it, because 38 gong and me rushing for the train everyday. We talked a lot along the journey, not much nonsense and craps, it's just our view and perception of life. Thanks 38 gong, when I was sad and hurt, you chilled me up by doing those stupid nonsense act which make me laugh like hell, it's better than a thousand words, at least laughing really can brush away my problems. We know we are growing up, we know we are no more the persons we were last time. Time change a person, and changing is inevitable. 38 gong told me don't hold on to something which already changed, let go, and move on. I realize our converstation now is full of "haih", remember that night back from York, we sat in Mcd with a cup of hot chocolate, we were looking at the rain, talking about the disappointments in life, sigh for N times, and again, we know, we are growing up, think more. However, we gonna meet up again real soon in Malaysia! Thanks for brighten up my holiday and sharing my feelings!

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It's the stressful period, exam is around the corner, the worst is I have no confident at all! Trying to study, but seems like I couldn't remember what am I studying, I feel so stress and nervous. It's unlike last time, when everything could be done on last minute, when the lecturers gave the tips, when final exam only worth for 30%. Now, 100% of my final grade depends on one paper, ONE PAPER! It's either live or die, that's all!

Human, from prenatal throughout the whole life-span, I wonder how many things I need to know? I wonder how many things I need to memorize? I wonder how many psychologists with how many theories, researches, and stages I need to keep in mind even in my dream? Too much of wondering, at the end, I draw a conclusion--> Being a human is hard, study about human is even harder!!! Sometimes, the more I study, the more I don't know about people, and the more contradicting I am...

Okay, it's time to study again! Going to take a warm shower and burn the midnight oil. Bless me, survive throughout this period, and do well in my exam!!! Amitabha!!!