Study Phobia

I am so sick of studying. Tired, exhausted and bored! These few days, I am living a super dead life. Wake up, lunch, study, online, study, coffee, study, dinner, study+online and sleep.

Sometimes I wonder why am I study so much here? To get a degree, to get a good job, to earn money?! Why not look for a rich and guy and marry, then stay at home and become "siu lai lai". "我要嫁个有钱人!" Hahaha, perhaps I am thinking too much here. Well, I am just crapping here, to release STRESS!

Done with Social but not Health Psyc, both come together. It's interesting when attended social psyc lecture, everything seems like common sense to us, but when I start to study it, I almost freak up. The more common sense I think, the harder to understand and apply. That's what psychology (perhaps is folk psychology), so easy yet so difficult, so near yet so far!

It's time for Developmental Psyc, coming out is my weakest subject-->Neuroscience! Then lastly Research Method which is the closing ceremony for my 2nd year. Then, free?! Paris, honestly, I am not so looking forward, I can imagine how exhausted I am after the last paper. Sick of travelling? Perhaps... I am more looking forward to go home, my lovely home. Now I realize that compared to home, travelling is actually nothing! *Home Sweet Home*, who doesn't want to go home?

Arghhh....... I wish tomorrow is 6th of June............ Sigh........................
Okay, get back to study.......... Wish me luck!

凡人烦事

同样的事情，两个不同的人用不同的方式告诉我，我又不同的感觉和反应。

这一刻，我清楚知道谁是真心对我好，谁不是。I am no more in a dilemma. 有些事情真的是很明显，我早就该知道谁是真心对我，谁珍惜我，谁关心我。我最讨厌被人当玩偶的感觉，我明白每个人都是自私的，但你自私的程度有点令我咋舌。难道你认为这世界上只有你一个人在忙吗？你永远都是那么的自我，你从来都没有去体会一下你身边的人的感受。你只懂得自己的感受，因为你是一个名副其实的自私鬼！但你得空的时候，心情好的时候，就和我聊得没完没了。心情不好或在忙得时候，你仿佛在告诉我不要有事没事就去烦你，妈的！真的是有够“杜兰”。

以前我还会感觉到伤心，失望，生气，现在的我已经没什么感觉了，或许我真的累了，我也不想再这样拉扯下去，我答应过我自己不会为了你这样的一个人让我掉眼泪，让我伤心，原因很简单：因为你不值得这一切！你那一副高高在上的感觉，让我觉得我自己高攀不起，或许我这一辈子都不能和你平起平坐。我不是谦虚，也不是自卑，只是我觉得在你的世界里，只容得下你自己，根本不会有别人！

或许不是你已远离我的世界，而是我已慢慢的离开你的世界！

或许或许，我和你的相识，一开始就是一个错!
抑或许，现在的一切已经不再是当初的那么完美！从对到错，只是因为时间的关系。

Countdown

Finally, I finished my final assignment for my second year. *Relief*, BUT only for a moment, it's time to prepare for final exam, which is after two weeks. Time flies, I can start countdown-ing for everything: final exam, Paris, and GO HOME!!! Can't wait to go home...

Time pass very fast, almost 9 months I am here. 9 months, sometimes I feel so unbelievable I survive happily here. People always say "time flies, people changed". I believe in it, perhaps we are no more walking in the same pace, perhaps you are walking farther and farther from me, and slowly you are walking away from my life. People come and go, it's inevitable. But I appreciate every friend of mine, but sometimes thing doesn't go the way you wish.

Submitted! It's time to study!! Aza-aza Fighting!!!

Countdown...

Countdown...

Countdown...

Happy Birthday Mel~

Happy Birthday Melvin Papa!!

Wow, your birthday celebration this year is without me! Wondering how would it be? You definetely will be missing me a lot, aren't you?

~This is your 21st birthday in Redang Island, 2006~

~Your 22nd Birthday in Pangkor Island, 2007~

This year, 2008, I don't think I will have your birthday celebration photos. Lol. I wish I could be there and celebrate for you, I wish I could, but I am just far apart from you. Nevermind, though it's far, my wishes are always with you, sincerly.

I knew you when you pushed my head and asked me "can you fetch me home?" Hahaha... And our friendship started during Merdeka. I always wonder why can I get so close with you, endless topics, endless lepaking. You've been my close buddy since my college years, not even a buddy, you're just like my father. You always by my side when I was down and sad, wiping my tears away, lend your shoulder to me (telling me your shoulder is very comfortable, lol), giving me the support that I need, and cheer me up with your funny jokes. Even though now we're far apart, but I guess we still have endless topics when we actually meet up one day, right?

~You and Me~

~Mummy and Me was preparing your cake last year~

~Sweet family but KK is not here~

Okay, such a long post for you, touching or not? Lastly, I wish all you wishes come true! And have a wonderful and happy birthday celebration in Adelaide. I will always miss you and hopefully we can meet up real soon!!!

Happy Birthday!

*Huggies*

Random. My Life

Not knowing much is good, especially for a gal? According to somebody, guys normally will go for gals who seem like they need protection. Hmm, I wonder, wonder, wonder... Do all guys behave like that? They don't like a gal who seems strong and tough, and can do most of things by their own? They don't like a gal who is smart, clever, independent and confident? Pig Papa told me before "be weak in order to be strong". Papa and Dao Yong ah kong always come out with their evil thoughts, to train their daughter/grand-daughter to be evil, as evil as she could. She has loads of evil thoughts, evil plans, but apparently she is just too kind for all these, because she is KIND. She will not hurt people! Lol...

Okay, I realize I eat a lot recently, until to the extent that some people started to call me fatty. Gosh, I am a fatty, how possible it is? Just finish Khan's chicken karai and whole plate of rice, steal Muriel's nasi briyani a bit, damn, I am now so full. I'm been eating a lot since Easter Break, my face is getting rounder and rounder, tummy is 2 months old. What to do? I enjoy eating, I love delicious food and deserts. Porridge steamboat coming up soon, host by Aunty Joan, but don't know when. Planning to go over London to look for Kai Lun before he going back Malaysia, but still arranging my timetable, hopefully everything goes smooth.

Oh, that day after rainning, it was rainbow on the sky. It's so awesome, very beautiful. Normally I only see part of the rainbow in Malaysia, but that day I saw the whole curve of the rainbow, just like a colorful bridge. It made up my day, though I remember I was kind of pissed of someone that day.

~Rainbow from my room's window~

~Rainbow~

~Winter goes, spring comes~

Went to clubbing with my buddy and my ah lui last Friday. Not as much as "kakis" like last time, but it's still fun. Because my buddy is a "kaki" clubbing (kaki Maison) as well. We found that our previous life in Sheffield is quite dead, all the photos are about eating and travelling only. So, we decided to pick up our happening life back in KL, know more friends, get more clubbing "kakis", and live a happy life. Hahaha, get back to "pou jing" life.

Clubbing here not as exciting as in Malaysia, different culture, different environment, different music, different feelings.. I still miss those days back, with my "family", must mention the names here-->Kalvin, Yen, Dao Yong, Florence, Melvin, Michele, Carol, Finny, Rebin, Khe Kong, Peggy, She Fong, more and more............ I miss y0u guys, miss those days...

Here are some pictures when we went clubbing in Sheffield :

~Gals~

~ Joan, Muriel, and Dolly~

Sick Fish

I am sick.

I wish I am home now.

I wish someone could be by my side.

Sick in oversea is terrible,

everything by myself.

Two months is not far away,

but I just wanna go home.

Procrastination's thoughts

I wonder why I am so tired recently. At the same time, I just don't have the mood to do anything. I know I just need a good rest, a really good rest. Final exam is coming soon, STRESS! And now, I need to decide for my final year research project and final year essay topic. Due date is near, but I just lazy to use my brain to think about it. Sigh, I know I shouldn't be procrastinating, but I just couldn't get my mind clear enough to think about all these stuffs. Tell me, what should I do to stop procrastinating?!!

Have a talk with my buddy last nite. We agree there is no turning back for certain thing. When a gal loves you deeply, she is willing to do anything without complaining. Even when you hurt her, when you don't appreciate whatever she does, she's still willing to wait for you. But hey, everyone has his/her own limit. When a gal decide to leave you, she means it. Now, you regret and want to learn how to appreciate her. You do so many things to touch her heart, but sad to say, when the feeling is gone, IT'S GONE! No matter how much you do, no feeling, we found the thing you do is very irritating and totally meaningless. The only thing we can say is "everything is too late, is too late for all these, there's no turning back!"

I am just generally speaking from the perception of a gal, no offence. No matter is a guy or gal, appreciate the person who cares so much of you, appreciate the person who loves you, who will stand beside you no matter what happen. Appreciate the person who appreciate you! Don't let everything become a past tense, you just know how to appreciate, but most of the time it's too late! Appreciate what you have, appreciate the present! Don't do something you will regret in the future! It's no point regret if it's already over.

Okay, I know I being crappy in this post. But, I just feel like blogging rather than thinking of my research topic or studying. Somebody out there, please motivate me and support me!!!

p/s: Hey dude, don't forget our EVIL PLANS!!!! Muahahahaha......