Hello everyone!! Happy easter!!
Done with my dissertation and having a 3 weeks holiday now. Suddenly have the feel to update my blog, just to write down my feeling and my thoughts. These few days, the weather in Sheffield is good, sunny and warmer. I was sitting in front of the St. Paul fountain with my ice-cream, I saw many people sitting/relaxing on the grass, children playing in the fountain, and everyone looks happy and cheerful. That moment, I feel warm and calm. Now I understand why British so so love sunny day. Yeah, it is a huge different on people's feeling, expression, and mood between spring and winter, I know that!
Long time I never browse through people's blog, suddenly feel like reading people's blog but sadly most of my close friends did not update their blog for a long time. Any interesting blog to introduce? I am more interested in people writing about their thoughts, feelings, and their point of view on everything. More philosophical, so I can get some inspiration. I came true a singer's blog, who I personally think he is quite good and interesting both on his singing talent and personality. Well, I am interested in different people's experiences and how they feel about their experiences.
I feel glad sometimes that I am still able to live my own simple life while others might wish they have a simple life. People, when you are living a simple life, you wish you are somebody; when you are somebody, you wish you could live a simple life, coz we'll never satisfy. I have my ambition and dreams, but it is always not easy to reach out to your dream. Sometimes I will think my dream are far far away from me; but it's because I haven't step out, I haven't try. Perhaps when I take the first step, when I found my courage and faith, eventually dream is not too far from, because I am moving towards my dream.
Wish my dreams will come true! Wish everyone's dreams will come true too!
My Memories
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Friday, March 20, 2009
Me and my dissertation
Been busy for my dissertation recently, besides stress and worry, I don't know how to describe my feeling now. Thought passed up my first draft, then I can relax for a while. Yes I did; but today when I received feedback from my supervisor, OMG, I am so disappointed! Disappointed and angry of myself, because I think I can do better, because sometimes I just procrastinate too much.
Came to UK to study sometimes makes me think that I am not as competent as other people, I am not as hardworking and smart as other people. I feel inferior sometimes, especially when meeting my supervisor and some coursemates. Sometimes, it reminds me of my high school life, when I thought I was as academically competent as other peers, when little effort was needed. Thinking of my previous performances make me feel even more inferior now. Now, I spend months for one assignment, but sometimes the outcome is not equally same as the efforts.
Second year here, seems like I don't really have much fun compared to last year. No more traveling, no more hanging around, no more relaxing where people always perceive study in UK is having so much fun and so relaxing. Oh well, people only see the happily traveling moments but never see the time when we are struggling. Travel travel, I wanna take a break from Sheffield, RIGHT NOW!
Well well, one more week, one more week then I'll be temporarily free--> 3 weeks Easter break!
Conclusion: Sometimes study is so tiring, I might need a break from study.. Bless me, bless my dissertation will be great! =)
Came to UK to study sometimes makes me think that I am not as competent as other people, I am not as hardworking and smart as other people. I feel inferior sometimes, especially when meeting my supervisor and some coursemates. Sometimes, it reminds me of my high school life, when I thought I was as academically competent as other peers, when little effort was needed. Thinking of my previous performances make me feel even more inferior now. Now, I spend months for one assignment, but sometimes the outcome is not equally same as the efforts.
Second year here, seems like I don't really have much fun compared to last year. No more traveling, no more hanging around, no more relaxing where people always perceive study in UK is having so much fun and so relaxing. Oh well, people only see the happily traveling moments but never see the time when we are struggling. Travel travel, I wanna take a break from Sheffield, RIGHT NOW!
Well well, one more week, one more week then I'll be temporarily free--> 3 weeks Easter break!
Conclusion: Sometimes study is so tiring, I might need a break from study.. Bless me, bless my dissertation will be great! =)
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
陌生人
陌生人
蔡健雅
作词：姚谦 作曲：蔡健雅
一朵云能载多少思念的寄托 在忽然相遇的街头
当我们擦身而过 那短短一秒钟
都明白 什么都变了
一转身谁能把感慨抛在脑后 在事过境迁以后
这感情就算曾经 刻骨且铭心过
过去了 又改变什么
地球它又 公转几周了
我不难过了 甚至真心希望你能幸福 当我了解你只活在记忆里头
我不恨你了 甚至原谅你的残忍理由 当我了解不爱了
连回忆 都是负荷
浓情爱恋 都已陌生了
我不难过了 甚至真心希望你能幸福当我了解你只活在记忆里头
我不恨你了 甚至感谢这样不期而遇
当我从你眼中发现我已是 陌生人
我已是 陌生人了
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Valentine's day post?!
Finally, I am done with my experiment, been working for more than 3 months, and finally I got all 60 participants! It's time to analyse my data and write up for my dissertation. Going to be very busy again soon, very soon.
Finally, I've finished the drama series. Opps, actually I didn't finish it, I just watch until episode 52 and I skipped all the other episodes until episodes 81 and 82. Well, the ending was okay, kinda expected it to be. I always love to see the ending as soon as possible no matter is watching series or reading a book. Well, I know the process towards the ending is interesting and is important in moving towards the ending and people always say that enjoy the process regardless of what the ending is. But I think all the processes are drawing towards the ending, the conclusion. So, no matter how, people still care about the ending. People work hard regardless of the obstacles, happy or unhappy, is just to strive for what they want, that's the goal. It's just like experiment, to test the hypotheses in order to draw a conclusion.
I always prefer hong kong series because it's more near to the reality, to the actual world. Perhaps I watched hong kong series since I was small, and my dad always share the same opinion as me, the story line is more realistic and more natural. Everything just happen, and love just come so naturally, that's our life. Some drama is just too fairy tales. Everyone likes fairy tales love story, but fairy tales rarely happen and we're not living in a wonderland. Be realistic, think of what you want and move on.
Opps, I forgot is Valentine's day today. Well, Happy Valentine's Day to everyone. Those with gf/bf/husband/wife, may your love last forever. For those who are single, let's cheers for single and enjoy your single life while looking for the right prince/princess to appear. Lol...
Happy Valentine's Day!
Finally, I've finished the drama series. Opps, actually I didn't finish it, I just watch until episode 52 and I skipped all the other episodes until episodes 81 and 82. Well, the ending was okay, kinda expected it to be. I always love to see the ending as soon as possible no matter is watching series or reading a book. Well, I know the process towards the ending is interesting and is important in moving towards the ending and people always say that enjoy the process regardless of what the ending is. But I think all the processes are drawing towards the ending, the conclusion. So, no matter how, people still care about the ending. People work hard regardless of the obstacles, happy or unhappy, is just to strive for what they want, that's the goal. It's just like experiment, to test the hypotheses in order to draw a conclusion.
I always prefer hong kong series because it's more near to the reality, to the actual world. Perhaps I watched hong kong series since I was small, and my dad always share the same opinion as me, the story line is more realistic and more natural. Everything just happen, and love just come so naturally, that's our life. Some drama is just too fairy tales. Everyone likes fairy tales love story, but fairy tales rarely happen and we're not living in a wonderland. Be realistic, think of what you want and move on.
Opps, I forgot is Valentine's day today. Well, Happy Valentine's Day to everyone. Those with gf/bf/husband/wife, may your love last forever. For those who are single, let's cheers for single and enjoy your single life while looking for the right prince/princess to appear. Lol...
Happy Valentine's Day!
Monday, February 9, 2009
Present and Future?
Finally exam is over and new semester gonna start soon! The feeling after exam was like woohoo~ FINALLY! Shopping spree and a nice dinner after exam to reward myself, kekeke. Well, been watching the latest hong kong series after exam, day and night, non-stop. But now, I am bored of that series, basically the whole series is about how people make used of each other and betray each other just to get what they want. But I just want to know the ending :S
Actually I shouldn't be free after exam, should be working on my dissertation, should be thinking about my plans after graduate, but I am just avoiding it. What should I do after graduate? Continue to do master or start looking for job? Master, where? UK or Australia? Argh, I am on way to fill up the application form for Master in Occupational Psychology in King's College but I am so lazy and unmotivated to write a personal statement, to get reference letters, bla bla bla... Most importantly, I lack confidence for my result. I am just avoiding it, don't want to think about it, though deadline is getting nearer. If getting a job, which area should I go into? 5 months to go, it seems long but actually it is not. Sigh, somebody, choose for me, pick for me.
It has been snowing lately, and it's pretty when everything turns into white: the ground, the cars, the roof, the park, the street, etc. But, after the snow melts, the road become very slippery and I nearly fell down for few times, like ice-skating. Hmm, so there is always pros and cons for everything that happen? I wanted to upload some photos but I don't know what's wrong with my bluetooth, think I will upload it soon. Getting sleepier, to be continued...
Actually I shouldn't be free after exam, should be working on my dissertation, should be thinking about my plans after graduate, but I am just avoiding it. What should I do after graduate? Continue to do master or start looking for job? Master, where? UK or Australia? Argh, I am on way to fill up the application form for Master in Occupational Psychology in King's College but I am so lazy and unmotivated to write a personal statement, to get reference letters, bla bla bla... Most importantly, I lack confidence for my result. I am just avoiding it, don't want to think about it, though deadline is getting nearer. If getting a job, which area should I go into? 5 months to go, it seems long but actually it is not. Sigh, somebody, choose for me, pick for me.
It has been snowing lately, and it's pretty when everything turns into white: the ground, the cars, the roof, the park, the street, etc. But, after the snow melts, the road become very slippery and I nearly fell down for few times, like ice-skating. Hmm, so there is always pros and cons for everything that happen? I wanted to upload some photos but I don't know what's wrong with my bluetooth, think I will upload it soon. Getting sleepier, to be continued...
Friday, January 23, 2009
Emo-ing
It's 2009 now. Think back of 2008, there's so many things happened and which indirectly change my life now. Sometimes was thinking looking forward for a simple life but is not easy at all. Is not that I don't want, people and environment just don't allow me to be simple. I do not want to involve in something, eventually I need to be involved. If I don't, people will think I am selfish, I am fake. But hey man, this world doesn't always appear to be what you expect it to be. Why want me to choose? To choose the either one? I don't want to choose cause I don't want to lose anyone. But sometimes being nice to people is just like using the knife to hurt yourself. Who cares? People told me that I am stubborn, I will not admit my mistake even is my fault. But why you wanna pull me inside the ocean when you know I don't know how to swim? Why you wanna tell me all these when you know I am not firm enough to handle this, when you know I always being sensitive?
This time, I admit is my fault not fully trusted you. I am not in a position to judge that's why I don't want to be involved. I am not being fake, is just I am too scare to lose all friends. What I feel now? Seriously I am feelingless, started to think I am on my way to become cold blooded. This is not the single case. Time flies, people changed. I am that type of person who doesn't like changes. But now, I just didn't cry and I really can't feel the pain and sadness anymore. Maybe I am immuned to it, maybe I am numb. I've been tearing alot last year, but it only makes u weak and irritates other people. You know, I wanted to cry recently, but I realize I couldn't, I just don't know how to cry anymore. Sometimes I was thinking of giving up, giving up everything.
"Only tough people can make it to the last." But my friends used to tell me to be weak, don't be too strong. Haha, what a contradiction. Weak? I was weak before, but it irritates people and nowadays not only weak gals will get the attention. In contrast, in times we just need to be tough, independent, and smart enough to stand by ourselves. Depend on yourself before you try to depend on others. In this realistic world, I need to be tough and I always need to depend on myself when facing problems. I could complain and could get comfort from family and friends, but lastly I am still the one who is going to solve them out. Don't try to get sympathy from other people, we need to respect ourselves before others respect us. So, chill Dolly! Give up what you should give up, and move on cheerfully. I know you can, have faith!
This time, I admit is my fault not fully trusted you. I am not in a position to judge that's why I don't want to be involved. I am not being fake, is just I am too scare to lose all friends. What I feel now? Seriously I am feelingless, started to think I am on my way to become cold blooded. This is not the single case. Time flies, people changed. I am that type of person who doesn't like changes. But now, I just didn't cry and I really can't feel the pain and sadness anymore. Maybe I am immuned to it, maybe I am numb. I've been tearing alot last year, but it only makes u weak and irritates other people. You know, I wanted to cry recently, but I realize I couldn't, I just don't know how to cry anymore. Sometimes I was thinking of giving up, giving up everything.
"Only tough people can make it to the last." But my friends used to tell me to be weak, don't be too strong. Haha, what a contradiction. Weak? I was weak before, but it irritates people and nowadays not only weak gals will get the attention. In contrast, in times we just need to be tough, independent, and smart enough to stand by ourselves. Depend on yourself before you try to depend on others. In this realistic world, I need to be tough and I always need to depend on myself when facing problems. I could complain and could get comfort from family and friends, but lastly I am still the one who is going to solve them out. Don't try to get sympathy from other people, we need to respect ourselves before others respect us. So, chill Dolly! Give up what you should give up, and move on cheerfully. I know you can, have faith!
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
I am back!
Happy New Year everyone! Well well, I am late, forgive me for never update my blog for about one month. I was back in Malaysia and now I am back!!! Did you guys miss me while I was away? Lol, just kidding. Okay, so how was my trip back home? It was nice, it was fun and I was so reluctant to come back here. I miss my days there, with family and friends, hanging around, even stay at home by itself is nice and comfortable!
Back here, I was so stress and tired because of exam, but this time suprisingly I don't really feel nervous and unprepared like I did, though I might not be preparing well. The first paper wasn't so good, but again I don't feel that sad and worry. Since when I become so feelingless? Am I too exhausted to feel anything or am I already used to and feel numb towards those negative feelings? I think so too.............
Okay, let's enjoy some pictures from Malaysia:
~Family in Concorde Hotel, KL~
~Yen and Me at MOS~
~Acting cute? Acting silly?~
~Carol and Dolly in MOS~
~Me, Yen, and Florence~
~Souled out reunion with college mates, where is Mich?~
~The "forever love" Ah Po and Ah Kong~
Back here, I was so stress and tired because of exam, but this time suprisingly I don't really feel nervous and unprepared like I did, though I might not be preparing well. The first paper wasn't so good, but again I don't feel that sad and worry. Since when I become so feelingless? Am I too exhausted to feel anything or am I already used to and feel numb towards those negative feelings? I think so too.............
Okay, let's enjoy some pictures from Malaysia:
~Family in Concorde Hotel, KL~~Yen and Me at MOS~
~Acting cute? Acting silly?~
~Carol and Dolly in MOS~
~Me, Yen, and Florence~
~Souled out reunion with college mates, where is Mich?~
~The "forever love" Ah Po and Ah Kong~ An instant update for now... =)
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