A love letter

To my lovely dear,

Since the first day I met you, I know you are an attractive person, at least you attracted my attention! You look so familiar to me yet you are so far from me! Everytime when I get closer to you, either I can't see your face clearly or you disappear from my sight! I think I know you but I don't know who are you!!! Maybe you are somebody in my life; maybe you are not, I am not sure about that!!!

In the dream, you are my lover... And why do you always appear in my dream??? Can I know who are you???

Yours beloved,
JelLy---fIsh

(This is the love letter I told michele I will write. Since this is the first time I write, so I don't think is a love letter.)

***Everything just out of boredom!!!

Like and Love

Today my friend asked me to differentiate between like and love... I told him is depends on how he looks at them... He asked me to give opinion on that... Well well, I personally think that like is about having good impression towards people: you can like a lot of people at the same time such as your family members, friends, or even strangers... But love... hem... I think is more complicated, is an inner feeling, a special feeling that make you want to be with him/her---> It's so hard to describe!

Honestly, I don't know how to differentiate between like and love also... I could be quite blur and confuse with the two things also... I don't know how to confirm whether you like a person or love a person??? Finally my friend told me I wake him up, but the thing is I wake people up, but I still blur blur stone there!!! How how??

How do you guys perceive like and love? Come come tell me so I won't be so blur too!!!

Lovely Sunday~About love

It's been a tired and boring day!!! Sitting in the Genting's starbucks with mango frappucino and chocolate chips cinamon on the table!! Last night I went for Sammi Cheng's concert in Genting... The concert was great but people sitting beside Mel and I were quiet and weird?? We were the two persons in that row who shout and scream!

Back to the popular and usual topic---> Most people will become "blind" because of love? Maybe I don't really have the right to judge a person being "blind" when he is in love because I became "blind" too in my last relationship... But since a friend of mine is in love, he became a stranger in my life, I don't know him and don't understand him... I don't know he falling in love because he loves her; or he fall in love just for the sake of falling in love?? There was a time when I think love between a guy and a gal is very important in my life, and don't know there are other things important around me... And I don't know since when I realize and understand that love between guy and gal just a part, but not all!!! Perhaps experience can make someone grow!

Many people advise the friend of mine but he just continue being blind and deaf... He totally become a different person, different from who he was last time... Hardly spare time with friends, we seldom hang out together anymore, even normal chatting also become lesser... I am not trying to offence anyone who is in a relationship... As a friend, I also hope he find someone he loves and someone to love him, but I just hope he can be more rational so he would not hurt himself... But again, this is a very subjective issue, it depends on your definition and perspective on love... If he thinks he is happy in this way, I have nothing much to say and will bless him has a good and happy future!

This post should be post by Sunday, but sadly my laptop run out of battery and the plug in starbucks was not functioning... So I slept in starbucks!!! However, a tiring weekend!

Skinny Dolly

Today I went for medical check-up, the doctor was like "Oh my god!!! You are so underweight!!" Then he told my sister to buy oil for me to eat... He even said chop me off also not even one plate.. What should I eat then? Weight-gain?? Useless because I tried before...Perhaps my sister eat most of the food, that's why I am so skinny... Hopefully I will gain weight in Australia...

Time passes so fast, I am leaving to Aus in two weeks time...

Nothing much... Hopefully everything will be fine over there!!! Bless me!

My own feelings!

Going back KL this monday to settle my transfer thingy... There are a lot of things waiting for me to settle and there are many things in my mind too! But, everything is messing up and I don't know how to arrange those things... Actually when I know I could transfer to Adelaide, I am so happy, but I am so nervous now... It's not the first time I leave home, but still, going so far to another country... For sure I am a stranger over there because everything would be so strange for me... I might be going there alone, if I am telling you I am not worry and nervous at all, then probably I am telling lies...

I am so confuse and nervous now... Hopefully everything will be fine! "There are hopes when you are still breathing!"---> from my sis!!! Told me when I was in NS... I will never forget about this, it gave me a strong will to live happily though the situation was tough, and I know it will continue to give me support in my whole life... Just like my family, they will be there for me whenever and wherever, love you all! I believe I can adapt and live happily in Adelaide!

Step into the past

Everytime back to hometown went "yam cha" with friends for sure we will gossip around... Talked about our friends, talked about our junior as well as teachers... The most popular topic to gossip for sure is our friends' love story... Love stories of my secondary friends are so interesting and suprising! Everytime I came back, some of them already change their girlfriend and I was like so shock and felt I am so outdated! It was like a common thing for them to have girlfriend, break-up and involve in a new relationship in a short period... Listening to those story, I couldn't speak anything... ~Speechless~

Sorry to say that I personally don't think love is a game and is not a way to show how strong you are and how attractive you are! I don't think pe0ple need to fall in love just because to fall in love... Hitting target might be so excited and you feel proud of it, but you are hurting others at the same time... Try to think from other's perspective and situation, then you shall understand the feelings...

Then we talked about our love story during secondary school, was very naive and immature... We were like playing "exchange lover" game, the whole group is somehow related to everyone... Even the juniors are continuously in love with different friends of mine... It was like " XXX is your ex wor, but XXX been together with YYY also, then ZZZ chase her before!" This phenomenon can continue even graduate from secondary school... But I am not one of them anymore, cause I left the environment, left the group, and indirectly left the culture...

When talked about the sweet memories we had, it seems like not enough time for the topic... Camping, most of the funny, silly, sweet and unforgettable memories we had are during camping... Who and who together in the camp will soon spread to the whole school immediately after the camp... When talked about some embarassed moment, we were laughing and deny that it happened!!! We can talked non-stop on whatever happened in the past and is a way to keep us closer...

I had a great time with you guys and I appreciate it! It's hard to find a chance to have gathering again after this July... Anyway, I hope we can meet with each other one day and have a nice talk! Hopefully you guys successfully get into university and for those in UTAR and private colleges, good luck and study hard! I will miss you all!

Bless me!!!

Is in the midnight, I am sad to say my internet connection will only be available during this time.. I feel very pissed off because of the internet connection in my house!!!

I am so blur and worry now, but nothing much I can do... However, everything will be know and clear after few hours... May buddha bless me success in IELTS and smoothly transfer to australia!!!

No point to worry also if you know you can't do anything about it... Just wait...

Dolly Loong, everything will be fine!!!