My own feelings!

Going back KL this monday to settle my transfer thingy... There are a lot of things waiting for me to settle and there are many things in my mind too! But, everything is messing up and I don't know how to arrange those things... Actually when I know I could transfer to Adelaide, I am so happy, but I am so nervous now... It's not the first time I leave home, but still, going so far to another country... For sure I am a stranger over there because everything would be so strange for me... I might be going there alone, if I am telling you I am not worry and nervous at all, then probably I am telling lies...

I am so confuse and nervous now... Hopefully everything will be fine! "There are hopes when you are still breathing!"---> from my sis!!! Told me when I was in NS... I will never forget about this, it gave me a strong will to live happily though the situation was tough, and I know it will continue to give me support in my whole life... Just like my family, they will be there for me whenever and wherever, love you all! I believe I can adapt and live happily in Adelaide!

Step into the past

Everytime back to hometown went "yam cha" with friends for sure we will gossip around... Talked about our friends, talked about our junior as well as teachers... The most popular topic to gossip for sure is our friends' love story... Love stories of my secondary friends are so interesting and suprising! Everytime I came back, some of them already change their girlfriend and I was like so shock and felt I am so outdated! It was like a common thing for them to have girlfriend, break-up and involve in a new relationship in a short period... Listening to those story, I couldn't speak anything... ~Speechless~

Sorry to say that I personally don't think love is a game and is not a way to show how strong you are and how attractive you are! I don't think pe0ple need to fall in love just because to fall in love... Hitting target might be so excited and you feel proud of it, but you are hurting others at the same time... Try to think from other's perspective and situation, then you shall understand the feelings...

Then we talked about our love story during secondary school, was very naive and immature... We were like playing "exchange lover" game, the whole group is somehow related to everyone... Even the juniors are continuously in love with different friends of mine... It was like " XXX is your ex wor, but XXX been together with YYY also, then ZZZ chase her before!" This phenomenon can continue even graduate from secondary school... But I am not one of them anymore, cause I left the environment, left the group, and indirectly left the culture...

When talked about the sweet memories we had, it seems like not enough time for the topic... Camping, most of the funny, silly, sweet and unforgettable memories we had are during camping... Who and who together in the camp will soon spread to the whole school immediately after the camp... When talked about some embarassed moment, we were laughing and deny that it happened!!! We can talked non-stop on whatever happened in the past and is a way to keep us closer...

I had a great time with you guys and I appreciate it! It's hard to find a chance to have gathering again after this July... Anyway, I hope we can meet with each other one day and have a nice talk! Hopefully you guys successfully get into university and for those in UTAR and private colleges, good luck and study hard! I will miss you all!

Bless me!!!

Is in the midnight, I am sad to say my internet connection will only be available during this time.. I feel very pissed off because of the internet connection in my house!!!

I am so blur and worry now, but nothing much I can do... However, everything will be know and clear after few hours... May buddha bless me success in IELTS and smoothly transfer to australia!!!

No point to worry also if you know you can't do anything about it... Just wait...

Dolly Loong, everything will be fine!!!

Lifestyle I want now!!!

I've been living in a so-called city life for almost two years already... I can't deny that the life over KL is busy yet interesting sometimes... The night life over here---> lots of activities you can do! You can go "yam cha" with friends at mamak store, you can even go clubbing at night if you want... It is hard to be bored because there are so many activities you can do... But behind those attractive activities, there might be a lot of lonely hearts... Lonely doesn't happens when you are alone, sometimes you can feel lonely even you with a huge group of friends!!!

~Kuala Lumpur~

Last week I went to Perth, the lifestyle over there is very much difference from KL, maybe I should say a healthier lifestyle... I think the daily routine is very simple, go to work then go home... Most of the shops over there close at 5pm, you can rarely see the shops open until midnight... I heard my bro said there are not much things you can do at night... To be honest I didn't really into their lifestyle when I just reached there... It is so bored and bored... But I realized the life over there is so peaceful and relax, and I enjoy the life which is so close to natural...

~Perth~

City life might be an attraction sometimes, non-stop programs and activities make you fully use your 24 hours, perhaps some people hope there would be 34 hours a day... But when I live under this condition for a longer time, I realize I am so tired and I just hope to escape from here and find a peaceful place to live...
Now, I am looking forward the life in Australia, it should be a peace and healthy lifestlye over there!!! Enough of all tiring activities!!!

Promise ain't promise

I am hoping too much!!! I trust people will keep their promise no matter how, so I hold to the promise... But I just found out people didn't really take the promise as promise... I try to keep my promise so I expect other also will keep their promise, but I am wrong again... I told myself not to trust other's promise easily since the biggest and most important promise had been broken by someone... But then, I failed to make it... I still trust people will keep their promise... No matter the promise is important or not important, it's still a promise...

Am I that stupid to wait for people to make the promise come true??? Suddenly I feel so tired, frustrated and disappointed... Forget about it, I am tired of holding those promises... Just give me a break and don't break the promise and my heart anymore...

Spiderman 3

I just finish watching Spiderman 3 in cinema... Before I watched it, someone had actually tell me this movie is not what we expected... But then, why are there so many people rush to cinema just to watch this movie? I still remember during 1st of may, my friends and I went to cinema, planning to watch Spiderman 3, unfortunately when we reached there, there were notices around stated that tickets for Spiderman 3 were sold out on that day... The worker over there even need to use mic to announce the tickets were sold out for couple of times... Then I went to Pangkor Island for 3 days... When I came back KL and planning to book ticket for this movie, Kalvin told me is full for this two days... Awesome and incredible!!! Rebin actually tell me the people are crazy (Don forget you and me are one of them!!!)

Well well, back to the movie, is a typical hero movie, but this time is more about the inner conflict of spiderman himself between revenge and the hero characteristics? His aunt actually mention revenge can make someone losing himself... Yea, it's true... And another thing is we have the right to choose what we want in our life... Some people choose to be a bad evil, some people choose to be good... There are always choices in our life... Rebin told me Spiderman 3 is not as good as Spiderman 1 and 2, maybe the movie was directed in a different way, some scene was not connected well...

But, you can still go to watch this movie cause it is a big production anyway... Maybe you will see a different spiderman in Spiderman 3... Watch it out and we can share it!

《兜售回忆〉〉

最近正在读一本深雪的书《兜售回忆》。买下这本书是因为我对它的书名很有兴趣。故事是讲述一个没有记忆的孩开了一间兜售回忆物品的店，店里头的物品都有本身的回忆和故事。这个女孩就这样靠别人所摆放在店里的物品寻找当中的回忆。同时间，这女孩一直在寻找她失忆之前的回忆。最后她发现她现任的男朋友并不是她失忆之前的男朋友。听到这个消息后，她是多么的失望和伤心，因为她男朋友隐瞒了所有事实。到最后她才发现她男朋友是真的爱她的，而她也是深爱着他的。这时她才明白回忆并不是那么重要，只要现在她过得很好，有个爱她的男朋友就已经足够了。太执着于回忆，有时候只会让你更辛苦。

我曾经也想过这个问题。如果我们可以选择性的把回忆卖掉，那么我们只有快乐的回忆。但是, 人生如果只有快乐和甜蜜的回忆那未免太没意思了。有时候，回忆可以让我们成长，我们从回忆里吸取教训，这样以后就不会重蹈覆辙。我们是人，不是电脑， 不是只要一按“delete" 就可以删除所有不愉快的回忆。我曾经有一段不美好的回忆，在那时候我多么渴望能够把这一段不快乐的回忆给忘掉，我的确能在日常生活里暂时用忙碌和多姿多彩的活动把回忆给忘掉。但是，在我的潜意识里,那段回忆是实实在在的存在着，我也不知道埋藏了多久，就是在前天彻彻底底的吐出来。我才知道那是多么的痛苦和难受，但总算把它发泄出来了。

没有回忆就没有今天的你和我。但不要滥用回忆，很多人都选择活在回忆里，就这样他们忽略了身边的一切，停留在回忆只会让你裹足不前。人总是要往前看的，回忆偶尔拿来回味以下也就足够了，珍惜眼前的一切才是重要的。你们也有难忘的回忆吗？如果愿意我们是可以一起分享的。

这里有一句名言想与大家分享的 “As the individual matures, the bond with the past is broken."---Gordon Allport...